Adrift

Struggling  – [ /ˈstrʌgəl/ ]
– verb (used without object)
1. to contend with an adversary or opposing force.
2. to contend resolutely with a task, problem, strive.
3. to advance with violent effort.
– noun
4. the process or an act or instance of struggling.
5. a war, fight, conflict, or contest of any kind.
6. a task or goal requiring much effort to accomplish or achieve.

Yes, over seventy six hours and still going.

I won’t lie and say everything is great and never sucked before because I wouldn’t be true to my supporters here, nor to myself. I’d hate it.

But I’ve made it through 3 days cheat-free.

I’m tired, but not because of lack of energy and food, but because my youngest is sick. She’s had a stomach ache for the last 3 days and has barely eaten, and kept waking up at night crying, saying she wanted to sleep with me. However, we have a strict rule in our home that mommy and daddy’s bed is a private bed, and so is our bedroom. We want to teach them that their bedroom is their private room where they do private things, and that our bedroom serves the same purpose.

She did go back to sleep but I just can’t seem to figure out why she’s in pain. The flu, maybe? I’m feeling SO sleep deprived today.

I wish you all a wonderful weekend to come!

“If you’re still hanging onto a dead dream of yesterday, laying flowers on its grave by the hour, you can’t plant the seeds for a new dream to grow today.”
– Joyce Chapman

53 hours cheat-free and eating very healthy!

I won’t lie – for the past 2 nights, I’ve asked my husband to go out and get me a Slushie. It feels like a habit, not a need.

However, my husband, being the wonderful supportive hunk he is, refused and stood by me. He hates telling me no because I get agressive and mad, but he buckled down and stood his ground to say no to me. I love him for it! (and thankfully at 10 p.m. I’m too lazy to get out in the cold and get it myself, lol)

The good of this is that this morning my body started telling me when I was hungry again, which is awesome. It’s cooperating, even though I let it down so many times. My body definitely knows it deserves better.

I’m not completely back on track with my exercises and will cop that out to laziness, so I still need to work hard on that aspect but KNOW it will come back to me soon! It’s starting to freeze outside, so no more excuses!

Hope you’re all having a great Thursday!

I am!!! Why?

Because we’re Friday tomorrow!!!!!! WOOT

“Rule your mind or it will rule you. You may delay, but time will not.”
– Horace

Holy crapola, I’m doing it guys!!!!!!!

I made my stir-fry and ate a cup of each and was completely full. I had a bran muffin (I need to slow down on breads and starches) but I did GOOD, and no cheating too! I ate an apple this morning and I’m drinking my first 25 oz. of water for the day. I brought 2 tangerines today as snacks and a wrap for lunch.

I think this is it guys.  I finally got the train back on the rail and it feels great, but it’s still too early to tell. I’m staying positive and true!

And to start off, I’ll be honest about something I’ve done over the past 2 months. Yes, I starved myself and you all know it by now, but at night – obviously – my body craved sugar since it lacked nutrients and energy. Well, here goes: every single day, I drank a Slushie. Do you know what that is?

 A slushie is a little evil ice-crushed drink mixed with 100% pure sugar juice.

It’s been the death of me every single day since mid-July.

That’s right. THAT. Not chocolate. Not alcohol. Not cookies.

I swear, I thought I could live on these for life… it surely felt that way for the last 2 ½ months. Want to talk about something unhealthy? There!

Have a great Wednesday!